So, here I am Lord, at the end of a long day - a long ministry day, a long ministry-wifing day, a long day of mothering and planning and cleaning and laundering and cooking and more cleaning. And I wonder to myself, did I look for you today? Like, really look for you? How much of my day was head down, pushing on, getting it done to make it to now? The now, when my house is quiet and I am fighting sleep. I might have prayed - might have. I might have thought about what it was You wanted me to do with my day...I might have. But honestly, you and I both know that I didn't. That I didn't take the time to plan my ministry or my ministry-wifing day with you. I looked at the schedule and the schedule told me what had to get done. Did you try to interrupt my day and I didn't listen to you? Would I have taken the time to notice? Forgive me Lord for my head down approach to today - a day full of good things, necessary things. A day that truly could have been made better if I had listened...really listened to You.
Because really, I want to know what is next. But maybe I'm not ready for the next thing? There is much learning in the present thing to prepare for the next thing. And my present thing used to be my next thing. How did I get to this present-used-to-be-next thing? I find myself sitting, waiting. Listening...
Rest. Quiet. Peace.
A new season. A ready heart. An expectant heart. I feel on the verge of another next thing. That both scares me and excites me. Part of me thinks...can I take another next thing? Am I ready for that?
Rest. Quiet. Peace.
Maybe a heart tender to rest, quiet, and peace is my next thing. That would take purpose.
Maybe it means not working and trusting in God's provision. That would take letting go.
Maybe it means turning my life as I know it upside down and making rest, quiet and peace a priority. That would take discipline.
Time to listen and really hear. Time to think and really know.
Time to be...me and God, God and me.
Figuring out my next thing.
What is yours?
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